September 8, 2020

Suicidal thoughts might sound something like this:   “I’m just so tired.” “I keep hoping I won’t wake up in the morning.” “This will never get better.” “I feel no joy.” “I want to disappear.” “Why can’t I just die?” “I’m so hopeless.” “I have no purpose.” “I wish something would happen to me so … Read moreSeptember 8, 2020

September 7, 2020

Maternal Suicide It’s astounding that the US does not report these rates; especially when in the postpartum period. I was almost a part of this group of statistics that don’t even exist. If we can’t acknowledge this is happening, how will treatment ever become more readily accessible? Moms are definitely not immune. The postpartum period … Read moreSeptember 7, 2020

August 2, 2020

Remembrance Wall I hate that this tribute has to exist. And yet it serves as an incredibly sobering reminder of the power of #PerinatalMoodandAnxietyDisorders (#pmads) and how your brain is altered. It’s hard to admit that I should be on this wall. BUT GOD.  I have an incredible tribe that came around me and ensured … Read moreAugust 2, 2020

July 30, 2020

Worship Yesterday afternoon, I woke up from a nap and turned on some worship. The sun was peaking through the blinds, and Olivia paused to hug her Daddy and listen. We (a tribe of people, including Jessica, AJ, and Mirm to name a few) have done almost-daily worship time with her since she was born; and … Read moreJuly 30, 2020

July 7, 2020

6 days post op and still healing. This is the face of continued physical pain. This is also the face of emotional pain. #thisisthefaceofmentalillness Our brains are so incredibly powerful. And when your mind is ill, the way it can work against you is astounding. I am grateful for the amount of healing that has already occurred, so I … Read moreJuly 7, 2020

4th of July

Independence Day This Independence Day looks very different than ever before in my life. But different doesn’t have to mean “bad”. I have seen the posts all week about our independence being stripped away and how there isn’t much to celebrate today. But I would challenge you on that. Today, let’s reframe those thoughts and talk … Read more4th of July